First Things First

     Hello! Thank you for taking the time to read my first blog. I thought maybe it would be easier to journal my weight loss journey electronically instead of paper, especially since I am on it more often than I use to due to school work. 

    First things first, I thought I should write a little bit about my first steps on this Journey. I have been overweight since about the first grade, I was very active in sports and girl scouts all through elementary and part of junior high. The state I was in as of 2009,  I wasn't active, didn't eat right, and slowly losing my battle to obesity. Throughout the years I had tried to do something, but I was too afraid of failure. A good friend of mine, Jon, whom I will refer to as my brother; spiritual, not biological, finally got me off my feet, into the gym, and eating correctly. God, I love that man! After a devastating lay-off at work, I left betrayed my God, and didn't want anything to do with Him. It was because of that lay off that I couldn't continue my fitness.  I felt as if I was unimportant, bottom of the barrel, and just a failure at being the person I wanted to be. So, I left Him, He never left me, but I ignored Him. After several months of yelling, crying, talking, job-hunting and job-leaving, pouring out my heart, and learning that I had TONS of self-hatred, low self-esteem, and lack of trust in God, I turned back to the Father that loves me and truly cares for me more than I could ever know. I know now that the process I was going through (and still am, hence the blog), was so that He could show me the roots of why I thought so poorly of myself and judged myself so severely. He then removed them, completely. When the time came for me to get back into a healthy lifestyle physically, I was ready and eager!

    Today was the first day. I had prepared meals for my first week, by myself. I packed my lunch and gym bag by myself. I workout for the first time in over a year by myself. I didn't have my brother around this time, but I did have my Daddy. The whole way. I enjoyed my eating today. I enjoyed the pushing myself to finish five more minutes of walking and the feeling of accomplishment after. And in the morning, I am going to enjoy the soarness and doing it all over again. Glory be to Daddy! Sorry for such a long blog, but tomorrow will be shorter considering I would have already told you my beginning steps on this great Journey. Thanks again, blessings. 

                                                               --Chasidy